Writing Dilemma
Emma and Killian Neverland
lexiemcsteamy
So, I have an fan fic story I started writing in June and I haven't updated since the beginning of September. I loved the story when I was writing it and I don't want to leave it unfinished, but I have no motivation or inspiration to finish it.

It's called "Extra Baggage" and it's posted on fanfiction.net at the moment. It's gotten a lot of favorites, follows and reviews and I want to finish it for the people who have started reading it. I think the problem for me is that the story is an AU of sorts from the end of season 7 for Lexie at least, but the other events on the show took place the same. And, that's where I can't get back into writing. To finish the story, I need to write about Callie, Arizona and Sofia. Ugh........

I hated the events of season 7 and season 8 was just complete crap. And, I don't want to go back there. Ever. But for my story's sake I have to. There is no way my story makes any sense if those events didn't happen.

I have 9 chapters written and Lexie and Mark just got back together. However, there are many issues that still need worked out, namely Lexie's relationship with the three people named above (and I can't stand any of them anymore). So, I'm at a loss.

My other big problem is I love to read more than I love to write. I like writing and I'm surprisingly good at it. But, my favorite thing to do and has been since I was a small child, is to read. I can read for hours upon hours and not get bored. And, I read really fast so I can read lots of stories in a short time. I started reading fan fiction again back in March and I've been obsessed with it since then. I love having it at my fingertips at all times. I don't like reading electronic books. I love the look and feel of real printed paper books. But, with fan fiction, I can have it on the computer or my phone at any given time.

So, I think I'm going to have to find some time to drag myself away from reading and finish this story. Easier said than done.

Free!!!
Emma and Killian Neverland
lexiemcsteamy
I'm so happy right now!! For the first time in seven years, I didn't watch GA. I actually completely forgot it was on. And, I have no desire to watch or even know what happened. For the last three years, I've been on edge every week waiting for GA and to see if we would finally get the Slexie reunion. But, it doesn't matter now. I live in my fan fiction world where Mark and Lexie always get a happy ending and the show be damned!!!!!!! I'm finally free of it all!!! *Doing happy dance* :)

Toes in The Sand
Emma and Killian Neverland
lexiemcsteamy
I'm dragging a little bit today, but that's fine because last night I was in State College seeing the Zac Brown Band. What a fun, energetic show! Those guys really know how to put on a concert. It was more than just the singing. For a few of the numbers, they did nothing but play instruments for 5-10 minutes and it was still entertaining and lively. Gotta love a band with a fiddle player. I particularly liked their version of "Devil Went Down to Georgia." And, my favorite of course is "Toes." That was one of the last songs we played at our wedding as a send off to our Caribbean honeymoon.

Another highlight of being back in a college town was being able to get any type of food you wanted late at night. On the way home at 11:30pm last night, I was eating an egg roll and pork fried rice in the car. :)

It's finally over!
Emma and Killian Neverland
lexiemcsteamy
Well, I have been MIA from the internet since Thursday night because of being a bridesmaid in my cousin's wedding over the weekend and then taking a few days off to spend with my husband for our wedding anniversary yesterday (I can hardly believe it's been two years since our wedding).

These two events have distracted me from the INTENSE anger I felt watching episode 9x02 of Grey's Anatomy Thursday night. I didn't think I could have gotten any angrier at SR then I was when Lexie died. First, Mark slipped into a coma for no apparent reason. Apparently, he could survive being in the woods for four days and then weeks in the hospital. But, then he mysteriously deteriorates and goes into a coma. And, the last person he talks to is Dr. Webber. Seriously? He didn't get to say good-bye to his daughter, Derek his best friend of 30 years or even Callie (as much as I despise her). Shitty, shitty, shitty writing with so many plot holes.

But, the part that made me want to scream was Cristina's speech in the tub to Owen. I almost got physically sick hearing her describe what happened in the woods. I won't even say it. Anyone who watched knows the disgusting comments I'm talking about. I now believe without a shred of doubt that Chyler Leigh did not leave voluntarily or on good terms. Mark Sloan got a full episode dedicated to his death plus another episode (as crappy as it was) showing how he died. He even is getting mentioned on Private Practice. But, Lexie is killed in a brutal, horrific way in the first 20 minutes of the finale and her scene was only 5 minutes. Then, in the following two episodes she is only mentioned a handful of times and one time in the most gruesome, hideous way.

At the moment, my decision to never watch another SR show was finalized. I was having a hard time dealing with never watching Grey's Anatomy again since it has been my favorite show since 2005. But, hearing the callous way SR decided to end Lexie Grey's character (by far, the sweetest, most innocence, likeable and funny character to ever be on the show), ended by love affair with the show.

Today, I am unfollowing all the fan sites and spoilers sites dedicated to Grey's and Private Practice. I am only sticking with my fellow Slexie shippers. So, if you love Slexie, I will stick by you and remember the good times of these two greats characters.

And, this will be my last post ever mentioning SR and Grey's prior to episode 7x11. As far as I'm concerned, that's when Grey's ended.

Well, tonight's the night....
Emma and Killian Neverland
lexiemcsteamy
Well, tonight is the last episode of Grey's with Eric Dane. It is upsetting me and I think I subconsciously picked a fight with my husband because of it. Seeing how Mark actually dies is just depressing. Not watching Grey's anymore is just depressing. Reading the eulogy SR wrote for Mark (but not one for Lexie) is depressing.

So, going to get through tonight's episode and then I will only picture season 5 Mark and Lexie and they will forever live in the happy fan fiction world in my head.

Why do I let Grey's kill me???
Emma and Killian Neverland
lexiemcsteamy
I just watched the sneak peeks for episode 9x02 and the extended promo for Grey's. And, now I am more upset than I was before. Mark is alive post crash, but is obviously in denial about Lexie because he seems too upbeat. 9x01 happened 3 months after the crash, but Mark was only in a coma for 30 days, per his DNR. So, in the two months in between, something happens to Mark to put him in a coma. What? I'm not sure. But, I definitely don't trust SR or her writers. I'm really afraid they will make Mark do something stupid like try to kill himself.

Ugh!! Why do I let myself get dragged into this show? They've destroyed what used to be my favorite thing. I have to watch 9x02 though to know how they finish off Mark's story and then I'm done because when I watch now, I just want to scream and throw stuff at the TV.

Sad but Relieved
Emma and Killian Neverland
lexiemcsteamy
Well, now I know how it ends. As sad as I am from watching Grey's last night, I now know that Mark Sloan died and is with Lexie Grey.

I hate that they had to kill both of these characters off, but it is so much better than the SR alternative. I was really afraid she would send Mark off into the sunset with someone else and turn him into a deadbeat dad.

But, in a flashback, when asked who he would dance with if he had a partner at his granddaughter's wedding, he replied, "Oh, that's easy. Lexie Grey." My heart flutter, melted and that's when the waterworks really started last night. Mark and Lexie were meant to be.

Slexie is reunited and in my mind (and the minds of ever Slexie fan I've talked to), they are living in another world with their adorable little baby (no way was that baby Sofia).

I am watching one more episode of Grey's to see how Mark ended up where he is. He was only in a coma for 30 days but he died three months after the crash, so something obviously happened between the rescue and him falling into a coma.

Then, I am done with Grey's. I'm tired of being depressed from watching my "favorite" show. I will start re-watching the show from the beginning and living in the world of fan fiction where Mark and Lexie always get their happy ending.

Waiting on My Muse to Wake Up
Emma and Killian Neverland
lexiemcsteamy
I'm at work two hours earlier than I need to be today because I had to drop my husband off for a business trip. Maybe I can get my muse to wake up and I can work on the next chapter of my fan fic. I haven't had the desire to write anything in three weeks. I'll try to push myself today and at least get a couple scenes written.

Loss of a Good "Friend"
Emma and Killian Neverland
lexiemcsteamy
It's seem really weird, but for the first time in seven years, I am not excited for the premiere of "Grey's Anatomy." The highlight of my week used to be waiting for a new episode of GA. But, this year, I don't even care. I'm going to watch the first two episodes to see how they write off (a.k.a. destroy) Mark Sloan's storyline. But, after that, I don't really care.

It makes me really sad because Grey's used to be sooooo good and I loved watching it so much. Now, it just makes me mad because they ruined a show that was once so amazing. It's like losing a good friend.

Guess I'll just have to continue watching my DVD's. In the last two weeks, I've been watching Season 5 and have really be enjoying it. That's my favorite season, by far. :)

I'm on LiveJournal!
Emma and Killian Neverland
lexiemcsteamy
Ok, sooooo, I joined LiveJournal today because I've been told about some amazing fan fics I need to read. My newest hobby (since about March) is reading fan fics about Mark Sloan and Lexie Grey. I absolutely love Slexie. They are my OTP and I was so upset with the GA Season 8 finale.

I have watched Grey's from the beginning and I always loved it. But, when Mark and Lexie hooked up, I fell in love. After the horendous finale, I realized that for the last three years I only watched for Mark and Lexie. I patiently waited 3 years for them to reunite and then SR ruined it.

So, now I live in the world of fan fic where Mark and Lexie always end up together and have lots of pretty babies. :)

At the moment, this site seems really confusing, but I'm sure I'll get the hang of it.

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